Tuesday, August 16, 2011

FORGIVE, LORD? HOW MANY TIMES?

I am talking. You interrupt mid-sentence as though I weren’t even there.
Forgive, Lord?
How many times?
How many???
I deliver a handmade gift I know you’ll like.  You look up with disgust when you see me at your door.  I won’t keep you long, but I determine to not bother you again.
Forgive, Lord?
How many times?
How many???
You say you “hope those old folks with their walkers stay out of the way” of your shopping cart.
Forgive, Lord?
How many times?
How many???
You lied about me, something that can never be proved otherwise.
Forgive, Lord?
How many times?
How many???
An ex-employee, you effusively greet my husband with a hug and cheerfully introduce him to your intended while I, whom you know well, am ignored.  If I introduce myself, I risk embarrassing all present, including my husband. 
Forgive, Lord?
How many times?
How many???
You sign the check, but never pen a word of thanks.  Was the amount not enough?
Forgive, Lord?
How many times?
How many???
I call. You’re busy.  You say you’ll call back.  You don’t.
Forgive, Lord?
How many times?
How many???
I am talking.  You totally tune me out, later asking for the information I have already spoken.
Forgive, Lord?
How many times?
How many???
You say you “don’t want those old people touching” your baby.
Forgive, Lord?
How many times?
How many???
What is that You are saying, Lord?
You’ve forgiven me how many times?
How many???
But it hurts, Lord.
“Forgive them. they know not what they do.”
“Forgive as you want to be forgiven.”
“Do unto others as you want them do unto you.”
“Inasmuch as you have done it to the least of these my brethren,        
you have also done it unto me.”
I will forgive, Lord.
many times.
many.
I beg Your forgiveness, Lord.
many times!
many!!!
Thank You, Lord, for loving me
                       Please help me to learn to love more like You do.

2 comments:

joni said...

This was posted for a dear friend. If she wishes to claim it, then she may. This was used with her permission and such a good message, I had to share. :)

Joni

benning said...

An excellent message! We need His forgiveness always, and we need to learn forgiveness, too! Thanks, Joni! :D