tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13925627.comments2023-12-15T23:36:01.113-06:00Joni's Muse ~ The Poet Withinjonihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03401569094090026684noreply@blogger.comBlogger4116125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13925627.post-72109216300615622752019-05-24T04:43:33.208-05:002019-05-24T04:43:33.208-05:00Thank you, Ben!
Oh trust me, there was/is a mound...Thank you, Ben!<br /><br />Oh trust me, there was/is a mound of blessings in all of this. Having a great landlord who just last night told us he wanted rainspouts put in. Had all of this been done by the previous owner, he would not have walked in on all of the damages. He knows this and knew it when he bought it and was up to the challenge, most rich people are. :)<br /><br />The road is more of an anxious thing knowing your kind of tied to one exit, kind of eerie when that one exit is flooded out by yet ANOTHER storm! We need a good drying out before the paving can be finished. I'm okay with that because I WILL get to spend time enjoying a paved asphalt road after ten years of mud and gravel!<br /><br />The garden. God resurrected it and God will make it rise again. I've done nothing. Can't get out there so whatever is out there is all His doing! What good is life and gardens good for without trial? Absolutely nothing!<br /><br />Please, don't jinx my rent situation. No mention, no care, all will be in His hands!<br /><br /><3 HUGS <3<br /><br /><br /><br />Jackie,<br /><br />Thank you for stopping by and seeing my mess. I need to clean up the place. ;) <br />Love ya! <br /><br />jonihttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03401569094090026684noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13925627.post-47072144130924534592019-05-23T19:33:00.651-05:002019-05-23T19:33:00.651-05:00Praying for you Joni. Love you sister. Praying for you Joni. Love you sister. Jackihttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12875352531736308396noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13925627.post-16929866447176126562019-05-23T18:33:54.620-05:002019-05-23T18:33:54.620-05:00Sounds like a hell of a mess, Joni! But ... this n...Sounds like a hell of a mess, Joni! But ... this new landlord is moving on thingss, with a will, and you can see progress. Had the weather cooperated I daresay the repairs, and paving, would be through. Soon enough you'l be able to resurrect your garden. <br /><br />No indication of a raise in rent? Pray on that! <br /><br />*Hugs!* <3 Keep healing! :Dbenninghttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12883327259794768568noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13925627.post-41885955852768736982019-05-14T17:25:50.123-05:002019-05-14T17:25:50.123-05:00The kid's got it! I think he is better than me...The kid's got it! I think he is better than me in so many ways and that sat a lot about how well I did! <3jonihttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03401569094090026684noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13925627.post-68848792543532933422019-05-14T16:14:43.783-05:002019-05-14T16:14:43.783-05:00Very nice! Good stuff, Adam!Very nice! Good stuff, Adam!benninghttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12883327259794768568noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13925627.post-85694372912724919372019-05-12T09:56:30.353-05:002019-05-12T09:56:30.353-05:00THanks, Ben,
I type it up, draw pretty flowers or...THanks, Ben,<br /><br />I type it up, draw pretty flowers or vines on it and it BECOMES the cad. I don't buy a card to place this in a card. LOL This IS the card!!jonihttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03401569094090026684noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13925627.post-13215915566709704212019-05-12T08:47:52.339-05:002019-05-12T08:47:52.339-05:00Autobiographical poetry. Different! I liked it, Jo...Autobiographical poetry. Different! I liked it, Joni! I take it you write this up and send it in a card to Mom?<br /><br />*Hugs!* Happy Mother's Day! <3<br /><br />benninghttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12883327259794768568noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13925627.post-31342288766139208272019-05-11T04:27:04.046-05:002019-05-11T04:27:04.046-05:00Thank you, Leo,
I'm telling you, I thought th...Thank you, Leo,<br /><br />I'm telling you, I thought the femur break was it for me but He had other plans. Try the chemo He said, I listened. If it was not for the image of Jesus carrying the cross, if it was not for Him begging God to relieve this pain, I'd be a bigger mess than I am. I hold tight to those images. I'm a lot lower than Christ and HE did it. <br /><br />As for the mouse! Oh my, what a chuckle. I have two neighbors who I consider messy neighbors (hoarders) and me the clean neighbor. I have snobby Country Mice! They like MY place! LOL<br /><br />Try a water bowl low enough for them to get in but high enough they can't get out! I went outside to fill my dogs' water bowl (I'm careful, it's on the top step) and I've found, so far, two drowned mice!!! LOL Oh, could we tell some stories! <br /><br />I think the movie Mouse Hunt is perfect. Just give the mice what they want. Killing them is useless!!!<br /><br />Thanks for the smile! <br /><br />Love ya, Leo!jonihttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03401569094090026684noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13925627.post-82866211604255356012019-05-11T01:34:19.851-05:002019-05-11T01:34:19.851-05:00Jonni, I'm just heartsick at the struggles and...Jonni, I'm just heartsick at the struggles and pain you're dealing with. Who knows the mind of our God and his plans, but it seems to me you've been tried by enough fire to be pretty well-refined by now. I realize that all I or anybody can offer you are words of encouragement which don't help alleviate pain. Barb and I both pray for you often. <br /><br />Maybe a good laugh might help.<br /><br />I'm sitting up in my hospital bed at 1 am watching mice run out from under my desk and jump at what they think is their hole in my wall that I had Barb cover. So, they smack into the wall and drop down slightly stunned, and then STAGGER TOWARD MY BED. I have to rattle the bed to make them run back. <br /><br />We are surrounded by fast food places that attract mice in droves. They got a toe-hold on our house ...they shun the traps we've set. We are probably going to get a cat as a last resort. My dog, Luna, has caught quite a few. Pray we succeed.<br /><br />Goodnight and God bless.<br /><br /> Love, Leo<br />Leona~Authorhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07402887334910900186noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13925627.post-75593416131195305162019-05-10T10:06:08.696-05:002019-05-10T10:06:08.696-05:00Thanks, Ben!
Nothing alternative! I had one picke...Thanks, Ben!<br /><br />Nothing alternative! I had one picked out but they shooed it away. I don't what to think anymore, what to eat, what to do, or who to trust.<br /><br />All I want to do is heal too, and I felt I WAS until the first dose of Herceptin! It all took a nosedive since, plummeting quickly. <br /><br />I DO have a good day here and there and I see the old me and I cling to her like a wet towel. I cling and hold tight!<br /><br />I'm going to try Essiac tea from JustT. It's expensive for such little but with a gracious donor, I'll make it work! <br /><br />I'm still on a no sugar, no meat, and rarely dairy protocol. I haven't checked my weight but that has been the only positive. My weight has been the same for nine-months! We'll find out next week. :/<br /><br />Thank you for your unending, continued support!!!! <3 <br /><br />Love and prayers back atcha, buddy! <3 jonihttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03401569094090026684noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13925627.post-49151648100302420472019-05-10T08:20:51.669-05:002019-05-10T08:20:51.669-05:00Oh, Sweetie, I'm sorry! :(
How many alternati...Oh, Sweetie, I'm sorry! :(<br /><br />How many alternatives have they discussed with you? Herceeptin sounds like a big mistake. >:( Delayed massive pain? Good lord! :O<br /><br />*HUGS!* <3 We just wantcha to HEAL! Get better! FEEL better! Dangit.<br /><br />Prayers, of course, continue! <3benninghttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12883327259794768568noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13925627.post-2533398020165136902019-04-19T19:37:07.924-05:002019-04-19T19:37:07.924-05:00Thanks, Ben!
My celebratory New Year. A little d...Thanks, Ben! <br /><br />My celebratory New Year. A little different this year but I'm celebrating AND rejoicing! <br /><br />May you and mom make the most of the day with each other and give Walt a hug for me! He needs one! <3 Blessings to you and yours! <3 <br /><br /> <3 *HUGS* <3 jonihttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03401569094090026684noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13925627.post-26946305509976711682019-04-19T16:16:52.380-05:002019-04-19T16:16:52.380-05:00Just as I am, as the song says. That's a promi...Just as I am, as the song says. That's a promise that we cannot equal. <3:)<br /><br />Have a Blessed Resurrection Day!benninghttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12883327259794768568noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13925627.post-28646750996511423512019-04-13T12:10:07.923-05:002019-04-13T12:10:07.923-05:00Still wracking my brain... my stance as a 'for...Still wracking my brain... my stance as a 'form' of suicide?<br /><br />Trying to save my life with HEALTH and NUTRITION is like suicide? But the doctor knowingly killing me with poison is not seen as murder. I cannot wrap my brain around that line of thinking. That line of thinking is like fixing a flat tire with duct tape or using fix a flat to make it across the country. :/<br /><br />Illogical<br /><br />I don't think I'll ever understand the human species. :( jonihttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03401569094090026684noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13925627.post-20240684674690597032019-04-13T11:05:39.389-05:002019-04-13T11:05:39.389-05:00Drugs drugs drugs, everybody's answer to every...Drugs drugs drugs, everybody's answer to everything. lol<br /><br />I'm good! :D jonihttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03401569094090026684noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13925627.post-5035230819272186422019-04-13T11:02:52.226-05:002019-04-13T11:02:52.226-05:00Well, we already have a bill established (16 years...Well, we already have a bill established (16 years now) and WalMart isn't in the business of letting us pay monthly. When you have no money you gotta do what ya gotta do.<br />I only text Son and hubby! No one knows I have it, heck no one cares. lol<br /><br />It's my only line of communication with my kid. It's worth it to me. :D <br /><br />*HUGS*jonihttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03401569094090026684noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13925627.post-44343549535261130072019-04-13T10:58:22.902-05:002019-04-13T10:58:22.902-05:00Thanks Ben!
I understand I think, but seriously o...Thanks Ben!<br /><br />I understand I think, but seriously once it is in you, it NEVER EVER is cured and gone! It will always be there even if 1%, it is there and will come back unless there is a change. <br />Crap the doc wants to put me on another drug that he says CAUSES ovarian cancer and we'll 'cross that bridge when we get there'? I'm sorry, but something is seriously WRONG with our medical system! I'm their guinea pig. <br /><br />*HUGS* Sorry to worry you all *HUGS* <3 jonihttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03401569094090026684noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13925627.post-85831355511316882022019-04-13T10:01:13.916-05:002019-04-13T10:01:13.916-05:00:( They have a drug for seasickness, y'know. ;...:( They have a drug for seasickness, y'know. ;)benninghttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12883327259794768568noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13925627.post-1541932618583148082019-04-13T09:59:51.488-05:002019-04-13T09:59:51.488-05:00I have a flip phone from Walmart. It's maybe f...I have a flip phone from Walmart. It's maybe five years old. I receive texts, but have no idea how to send them because the 'keyboard' is the numbers pad. So I don't text. I tell those who want to, "Nope. Not interested, thanks." <br /><br />That phone goes to work with me, but remains where our equipment is. I have NO NEED for constant communication with the outside world. It's just a tool. And it's MY tool. I paid for it. I decide. :D Also I use TracFone for cell phone service. <br /><br />I have a landline, and could add a regular phone, but it's really only for Internet. Wheeee!<br /><br />We Luddites have to stick together! Yeah!!! <br /><br /><3 *HUGS!* :Dbenninghttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12883327259794768568noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13925627.post-18896479126715712832019-04-13T09:52:02.962-05:002019-04-13T09:52:02.962-05:00*Hugs!* <3
Cancer is fear-inducing, no questio...*Hugs!* <3<br /><br />Cancer is fear-inducing, no question. Nobody wants to see a suicide. So some of your friends see your stance as a form of suicide, and that scares them. But it's your choice as to treatment, nutrition, medicines, and so on. The fact that the cancer is still in you scares most of us who care about you. So we continue our prayers and will be there no matter what.<br /><br />Huzzah! :D<br /><br />Heal on, Toots! <3 *Hugs!* benninghttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12883327259794768568noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13925627.post-53419085602575336742019-04-09T17:02:36.886-05:002019-04-09T17:02:36.886-05:00I would've too. But that would've been the...I would've too. But that would've been the LOGICAL choice. <br /><br />I'm seasick! jonihttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03401569094090026684noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13925627.post-51827448035087757152019-04-09T16:43:18.309-05:002019-04-09T16:43:18.309-05:00I would've suggested Wal-Mart for a phone. :)
...I would've suggested Wal-Mart for a phone. :)<br /><br />It does seem like crud comes in waves, doesn't? But waves do end, and the crud recedes.<br /><br />*Hugs!* <3benninghttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12883327259794768568noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13925627.post-29892723848437085612019-04-09T07:44:10.956-05:002019-04-09T07:44:10.956-05:00Thanks, Ben!
I DID NOT know it would suck the wil...Thanks, Ben!<br /><br />I DID NOT know it would suck the will to live right out of me! I DID NOT know that every part of my body would ache like never before. <br /><br />They told me 'menopausal symptoms' not sweating buckets of water. lol<br />They told me, "No more chills after the initial first dose." A bold-faced lie!<br />THEY have a tendency to bend the truth to keep me coming back to their drug. <br /><br />I am only continuing because I BELIEVE that MY PROTOCOL (vitamins, exercise, a diet of 90% fruits and veggies) along with the conventional poisons is what is going to win me this battle. <br /><br />I WAS NOT expecting the tiredness, the doldrums, the depression just things I'm NOT accustomed to has swept over me making the battle a bit tougher. <br /><br />I KNOW I will get through this, sharing the bitter truth and pain is for the people who might be giving up. I'm going on. I don't have to like it, but I'm doing it. <br /><br /><3 *HUGS* <3 jonihttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03401569094090026684noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13925627.post-61272653193113680522019-04-08T09:46:29.904-05:002019-04-08T09:46:29.904-05:00*Hugs!*
Sorry to hear of all the pain and discomf...*Hugs!*<br /><br />Sorry to hear of all the pain and discomfort you're experiencing. Not pleasant. And you DID know that the Chemo would bring this. That you may be getting a lighter 'dose' of pain and discomfort due to not being permanently hooked up is small relief. But you ARE getting through it. You ARE surviving! One way or another GOD will bring you through this. <br /><br />*HUGS!* <3 <br /><br />Keep eating the veggies! They HAVE provided a measure of positive health to you. Don't abandon that. <3benninghttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12883327259794768568noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13925627.post-90346891899526991972019-03-28T13:03:52.952-05:002019-03-28T13:03:52.952-05:00I hold them like the coveted jewels of the rich. T...I hold them like the coveted jewels of the rich. The food to the poor. The shelter to the bare. I treasure every good day I'm alive making them easier to share! :)<br /><br />Thanks Ben!<br /><br />Seriously, All that to prove I'm not a robot?? Geez, I get one comment as it is. :( <br /><br /><br />I see where this is going.jonihttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03401569094090026684noreply@blogger.com