Healing Through Prayer

1 John 2:1-2 (NIV)

My dear children, I write this to you so that you will not sin. But if anybody does sin, we have one who speaks to the Father in our defense -- Jesus Christ, the Righteous One. He is the atoning sacrifice for our sins, and not only for ours but also for the sins of the whole world.

Healing through prayer

The prayer of the righteous is powerful and effective. It may be just me, but I do not feel an emoticon is righteous and should not be used in the place of prayer, real earnest prayer. I have learned through watching and seeing, feeling and knowing that prayer encourages healing and this is where I’m at, for now.

Who are the ones paying when I don’t pray? The negative influencing people could care less about me or whether they are hurting me or they wouldn’t post what they do and consider the pain they might inflict on people. No, they continue spewing their hatred, flaunting the ego in laughter and using God’s word for their own feel good show. 

When I can’t make it onto facebook and see the prayer requests, the only one paying for my lack of prayer are those in need of prayer and thus satan thinks he is winning the game. As I find healing it is only through prayer that the power of prayer is realized. While satan was wielding his pitchfork and laughing at my seeming demise, I prayed. My God has always been stronger and more powerful and I knew I’d find healing.

I need to stop taking everything people write and post as a personal attack on ME! I need to know that people are human and going to act accordingly in the search for their egos survival for without their ego, they are nothing. To me, they are the Legion referred to in Luke. Men of many faces, hiding in the armpits of satan, wearing the many masks that evil offers.

Luke 8:30 “And Jesus asked him, saying, What is thy name? And he said, Legion: because many devils were entered into him.”

The darkened days are clouded over with an air of mystery as night after night, day after day storms erupt from the sky unleashing damaging lightning, gusting forceful winds, trembling thunder, and torrential rains that leave the newly plowed fields unrecognizable. The sun is hiding behind the darkness waiting to warm the moistened soil just as God is waiting for me to embrace the light that is hiding within me and to override the negative influence with the Glory of Him and Him alone.

While depression will lay dormant I will get on the horse and ride into the sunset that I know is there and it will cradle my thoughts. I will not make light of the darkness that covers my eyes, no I will see the sun lurking behind the cloud waiting to pierce the ground in the light beams that will eventually devour the gray murk of the days.

I don’t use pills to heal my daily pain, I don’t use alcohol to hide behind a storm inside, I don’t abuse food because it serves me no purpose. I won’t go to a doctor who is only there to tell me what I DON’T have wrong with me and can only confirm what IS wrong with me when the tally of the doctor bill reaches the thousands, THEN they’ll find what is wrong and will medicate me for the problem instead of finding HEALING for the problem.

Each day that passes, I will slowly emerge the victor of the storm stronger because the darkness didn’t win, this time, yet again. A flower will unveil one petal at a time. Buds will emerge and the winds will strengthen the stem. I will continue to write, as this is my God-given path that I must pursue. While my immediate family could care less if I write, I know there are people out in the world seeking that one person who is suffering with them and wish to read how they handle such circumstances and maybe THAT is why so many storms take hold of my life so that I can weather them and share my healing with others like me. 

I'll weather this storm and find my healing through earnest prayer. All praise and Glory to God. 

Phil. 4: 6-7 “Be careful for nothing; but in every thing by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God.

And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.”

Astri Celia ~ Still Born

Hos. 9:11 “As for Ephraim, their glory shall fly away like a bird, from the birth, and from the womb, and from the conception.”

Astri Celia 

b. 4-26-04 d. 4-26-04

So many have forgotten her

They never knew her name

What people here don’t realize 

I’m left not quite the same

I held her tiny body

My fingers brushed her face

Life was taken out of her

Right from this earthly place

She never felt the sunshine

No chance to run and play

I was faced with living

Without her near me every day.

Seven months of bonding

As all pregnant mothers know

You’re threaded by conception

To this child you’ll watch and grow.

So many have forgotten her

Astri Celia was her name

What people here don’t realize

I’m left not quite the same.

Ecc. 7:1 “A good name is better than precious ointment; and the day of death than the day of one's birth.”

Sunshine Award

That best portion of a man's life, his little, nameless, unremembered acts of kindness and love.
~ William Wordsworth ~

***

I woke up this morning in the still of the late night. Four A.M. is quite early to me but I just couldn’t fall back to sleep with thoughts running around in my head. I’ve got a lot on my mind in the way of redefining my future, letting go of my past, living day-to-day in the present.

While it was still dark outside, the birds slept while crickets chirped, I arose to a fellow blogger offering me a Sunshine Award. A sunshine award? Me?

It made me think of my mother whom, back home in Maryland, always sings the sunshine song to me, on one of the many daily calls I make to her. Remember,

“You are my sunshine, my only sunshine, you make me happy, when skies are gray, you’ll never know dear, how much I love you, please don’t take, my sunshine away.”

She tells me I am her sunshine and my calls brighten her day. Well isn’t that a wonderful feeling? To know that you, little ol’ you, can brighten someones day? I’m blessed.

My friend and fellow blogger Doreen, says I inspire her. That is a GREAT feeling also since sometimes you never know if these words are sinking into someone’s brain or are they just being released to the universe. Thank you Doreen for letting me know that all of this hard work is not for nothing, it is truly for something!

Now onto paying it forward.

I’ll list 5 things that bring me sunshine, and try to pass it on to 5 wonderful friends. Now, remember I don’t have many friends but each and every person that touches my life is a little ray of sunshine on a gloomy day.

5 things that bring me sunshine:

1) My Lord and Savior (on any given day, rain or shine, he always brings the Light into my life.)

2) My Fiance (who although blind, can still see light. He gives me reason and pourpose, encourages and fulfills. He’s my everything.)

2) My son (for whom without, I’d have very little reason for living.)

3) My writing (the only dream holding me into place so I don’t completely fall apart)

4) Nature (my garden is a simple pleasure that brings warmth and sunshine into my world in a sunburst kind of way, and a fragrant way.)

5) Family (mine is far away but thoughts of them always warms my heart. My other family, my fiance’s family, is enriching, nourishing, and nurtures the woman I am today.)

Okay I know I have two number two’s but I can not put one above the other. They are my life.

Now to pass on the sunshine...

1) Steven, although the award is futile being he can’t see the awesome bright orange flower. Two blogs! Drums in the Deep and Audio book Heaven

2) Adam, who is turning into a writer just like his mom. Read his, Poems have Hearts blog.

3) June, who is my mentor above and beyond. Quite an awesome lady. She never allows me to stagnate.

4) Benning, another mentor and dear friend of mine who inspires me and eggs me on!

5) To ALL of my followers who keep me presently in their lives. It is because of them, you get posts everyday. Rich content posts too! :) (see links to my friends to the left)

Thank you all and thank you Doreen!

Life is divided into three terms - that which was, which is, and which will be. Let us learn from the past to profit by the present, and from the present to live better in the future.
~William Wordsworth ~