Matt. 22:30 For in the resurrection they neither marry, nor
are given in marriage, but are as the angels of God in heaven.
Love Online Gone Right
The year was 2002. I had just discovered the internet via a
free computer my bro-in-law had given me. I’ve told this story many times over
the years but it is worth repeating because some things have changed and the
backstory always gives you the broader picture.
My niece introduced me to a chatroom and the rest is history
so to speak. I found it interesting that you could be this anonymous person and
no one ever had to know the real you. Little did I know I was some sort of wave
of electrical magnetism and could feel these people coming through my screen
who were also anonymous.
I met Steven as an anonymous user and we became fast
friends. I was married, he was married and we came together as friends who just
needed someone to talk to. Little did I know we’d complete one another. He’d
finish my sentences, I’d finish his; we found common interests that I had never
shared with my husband of nineteen years.
It wasn’t a friendship based on comparison of our partners;
it was a relationship being formed by the universe in some way. We knew it, our
partners knew it and we all knew that there was something here that we couldn’t
just walk away from, even though both spouses tried to pull us apart. This kind of soul meeting
happens very few times in a lifetime and if you’ve ever been a part of a true
soul-find, you know what I’m talking about.
Ten months later we took the plunge into the unknown and we
met in person. Steven just coming off of a divorce and me with a marriage in
shambles, and a child who needed more in life and more than my ex could ever
give him.
The first couple of years were our feeling-each-other-out
years. The discovery years I should say. This is where we would get to know
each other in a physical sense instead of the months of a spiritual journey
that we rode on. All new learning experiences for me since he was only the
second man in my entire life that I ALLOWED to get into my mind; mentally,
spiritually, and physically.
It wasn’t all rainbows and unicorns. At times I thought this
was the biggest mistake in my life but then the thought of going back home
scared me more than persevering and seeing what this future held for me. There
were times I hated this man so much but the love for him was deeply embedded
inside of me and the thought of a life without him was scarier than a life WITH
him.
We found a church about the second year we were together. I
was very committed to Christ while he had strayed from Christ over the years
and wanted to return to Him. This made me very happy since my ex wouldn’t even think
of church. Funny, how could I be so embroiled in Christ while neither man had
even known the POWER of Him?
Then Steven went blind and my love for him turned into
compassion. I was seeing him in a new light while he was relinquished to not
seeing at all. I began wondering if this was the reason God brought us together
so I could take care of him and show him the way into the Light of the Lord,
hmm. Being blind showed Steven things he could have never experienced had he
had his sight and I could feel our love deepening through this trial. After two
years of being blind, the miracle of his sight was restored.
We had not really talked about marriage. We had both been
there, done that sort of thing. I only just recently got a divorce and marriage
just was not an option. Even though our church frowned on us living in sin,
they did not understand the complexities of our relationship. We’re not bound
together because of physical attraction or what we can give each other
physically, our spirits binds us together.
Think of it like this:
We have this cute little electric heater sitting to my
right. It’s black with a windowed front and the lattice-look that allows a fake
fire to be seen behind; it is very attractive to the eye. We turn it off at night
which means no electrical current is running through it. I unplug it sometimes
and leave the cord just lying on the floor.
To me, this is what people come up against when they meet
someone in the physical sense. They find themselves attracted to the physical
person, but they haven’t plugged in the mechanism to see if it works. When they
do plug in the relationship, it needs to work so like the heater, it is then
turned on.
When you meet someone online, your spirits are plugged in
and turned on right from the get go. It seems a little confusing and trying at
times to understand what the connection is and where it came from, but if you
don’t unplug it, it works. You feel the electrical current running through your
system and it makes sense to keep that connection through the electrical vent
of the cosmos.
Our church wanted us to turn-off our relationship for a
while and see if we found our way back to one another. Sorry people, we’ve been
plugged in for thirteen years now. We don’t have a relationship that turns on
and off, we have a cosmic connection that can’t be unplugged from the universe.
Let me just say this, God is the current running through our
veins so when we unplug from one another, we would be unplugging from Him and
His connection and I’m not willing to do that.
Just last week Steven asked me to look at something…wedding
bands. I’m not a fancy-scmancy kinda gal and he knows me so well I loved what
he was looking at. Wait! Wedding bands? Is this a proposal? He said no in his
rye only-I-can-understand sense of humor. I told him that it’s not the ring
that matters; it’s what it symbolizes that does.
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