Friday, June 17, 2011

To See or Not to See...

that is the question that I ask of thee. 
I’m going to go off topic here to give you all an update on the prospects of my beau seeing again. If you remember the tale, a true tale no less, my beau went blind two years ago, and what seemed like everything going up against us, we were placed in the Lords hands and everything happened in its time.

We had to move from Texas, God made sure we had a place to live, food on our plate, and the means to get by. Hurdles upon hurdles were put in our path and as I never gave up hope, (I’m not one to give up!) I placed all my trust in Him who could carry me, us, to a safe place and comfort zone that the whole family found as a blessed relief.

Last year we went through the Lions Club fiasco and basically tried to force the issue of getting this cornea operation. We scurried like trained mice and did what people told us that SHOULD be done, but truly, in MY heart, that was a way of taking it out of God’s hands and trying to do everything ourselves. Like we can ever do anything WITHOUT God’s aid? This is beaus journey, I'm just along for the flight.

If any of you have ever tried to take something out of God’s hands, then you know the struggles that you’ll face and the outcome will not have been the plan that would have taken place if only left in God’s hands. As you can imagine, the letdown of not getting the operation and being made to wait a longer time, had beau a little on the antsy side. “WAIT” God was telling him, but instead he was listening to everyone else telling him to ‘get it done’ ‘God helps those who help themselves’!

I kept praying for Gods will, not MY will or beaus will or anyone elses will, to be done. So the waiting began again. And here we are waiting this time, for a cornea! He’s on the transplant list and the way it sounds, he’s at the top of the list. After he gets his physical next week, the doc will have all the information he needs to say, “Let’s get this done.”

“God helps those who helps themselves”, DOES NOT give us the right to take our trials out of His hands. And a lot of people are running around ‘helping themselves’ thinking this is what God wants, and I know what I read, God wants us to have FAITH, in Him to handle ALL of our needs. My belief is that, if you help yourself, you’re not having the faith that God can handle all!

I know quite a few who pray for things; they pray for what THEY WANT. But as a living testament to His Word that was promised to me, and you too, when you give it ALL up to God, He will then give you the means to ‘help yourself’. Yeah, help yourself to HIS WILL!!!

As our next step is the need of $3000 dollars, a three day stay in Omaha, beau draws concern. Me? I know everything will work out because guess what, it’s in God’s hands! Not ours!!! His will, WILL be done! And that's that!

Isaiah 41:10 ~ Fear thou not; for I am with thee: be not dismayed; for I am thy God: I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness.


M. SUE said...

I am still chilled from having read your words, Joni. As I read, chill upon chill went over me, because I KNOW God wants us to have faith and to move, but there are times He also wants us to wait. You seem to not need proof. For anyone who might: He promised a Savior, but the world had to ...get this now...WAIT. That's ONE example. I could tell you more.
Oh, I will be praying with love in my heart~
M. Sue

joni said...

Thank you so much Sue. You've been here for the duration of my hurdles and you've seen the results.
Prayer is welcomed as it has been the cornerstone of what has got me, us through these times. :)

He listens, He hears, and He ANSWERS!!!

Keep the prayers coming!!!

Martureo said...

Great post! It is so true that we often need to just let go and let God. I believe with you that everything required will be there for you. With God money is no object! I have seen that numerous times in my life and I can't wait to hear how he does it in yours.

joni said...

Thank you!
I love sitting here being the witness and then getting the chance to tell everyone of His greatness. :)

And no matter what the outcome, my heart of hearts tells me, His will, will be done. :)