Tuesday, November 19, 2013


2 Cor. 3: 18 But we all, with open face beholding as in a glass the glory of the Lord, are changed into the same image from glory to glory, even as by the Spirit of the Lord.

Change is washing over me. I feel as if I’m standing under a waterfall and the Light shining in every drop of water is infusing into my spirit, changing me. I’ve been through these instances in my life many times, as you can imagine, but this one is stronger and the water more forceful.

Much of it began ten years ago when I took the leap and left all my belongings behind, my past was left there and I rarely look back.  Then Grace happened in the following years. Not only the Grace of God (through Roundgrove UCC) but Grace Church happened. Adam was an instrument used by God to get us to attend this church and our lives have been in a spiral of change ever since.

Then a few weeks ago I felt as if something was missing in my life. I was feeling unuseful, for lack of a better word. I was feeling like I was just here going through the motions of life and not really taking any steps to change. Then the step happened, physically and spiritually, and then it was all climbing uphill, one step at a time. I prayed, as usual. My prayer? Make use of me.

We were at church a few weeks ago and our pastor informed all of us that there was an Efree website set up where all of us members could be in contact with each other, tidbits about the happenings at the church, post prayer request, or offer to pray for someone.

Thus began a moment of change. I had joined a prayer group on Facebook quite a few months ago (5 or 6), asked to join by a sister in Christ. I leaped at the chance to be able to bow my head in prayer and lift people up through Christ while doing so. I take prayer very serious, as I know that mere words are not enough. Prayer is the healing medicine that the Lord rains on individuals. I’ve experienced the healing so I know of a prayers worth.

1 Kgs. 8:28 Yet have thou respect unto the prayer of thy servant, and to his supplication, O LORD my God, to hearken unto the cry and to the prayer, which thy servant prayeth before thee to day:

Prayer is more than a word. When the church offered us the chance to be Prayer Warriors for our body of believers, I felt like God was answering my prayer. I now felt useful, maybe not in a physical sense, but He was using me spiritually to pray for people in need.

2 Chron. 6:40 Now, my God, let, I beseech thee, thine eyes be open, and let thine ears be attent unto the prayer that is made in this place.

That was my binding decision in changing my blog name. With the old name, I didn’t feel I was being true to myself and to God’s intention for my life. One step, one change, and thus the flowing of water began.

Do you ever feel like you’re in a rut? Same ol’ same ol’ and nothing is happening? You’ve asked for prayer but just don’t feel like they’re being answered? Have you tried changing something spiritually about yourself? No? Then this is why you feel nothing is working. You need to be open to spiritual change, drastic change, to EVER feel the rushing water flowing over your entire being.

Try it. Get back to me and let me know how it worked out for you.

This from another friend about my writing of the poem, ‘Free’: “Such a beautiful witness, Joni. I'm humbled that I could've somehow provided a bit of inspiration for you to pen this testimony to your salvation! God bless you.”

I do believe I’m finally doing what the Lord intended.
John 4:23 But the hour cometh, and now is, when the true worshippers shall worship the Father in spirit and in truth: for the Father seeketh such to worship him.


Tiggs said...

Joni, I don't think there is any more important gift we can use above prayer! You definitely have that gift along with your poetry and writing.

Believe it or not, You are still teaching in your writing; just a new message--what God wants and sends through your soul.

It has been MANY years since I could "serve" in my church--aside from prayer--and even that I didn't do well with my memory issues I was dealing with.

He has helped me so much the last 2 years to grow in my walk, grow in prayer and NOW just recently, he has given me back some of my serving/ministry in church. I think I needed to:

1) allow Him to do some physical healing.
2) most important: allow Him to teach me that service is worship to him, not something "I just wanted to do!"

I love it when in all the struggles, I am listening (or trying to) and everything just falls into place.

Bless you, Joni!

joni said...

You know, it's funny (ironic) that I thought I was doing what God wanted me to do and that was write!

It felt right but then it didn't feel right. He wanted me to write AND touch people, not just teach the ropes of writing.

This time I listened with a more clearer mind, and stopped all the listening to others that was trying to cloud my thoughts.

He came through LOUD and CLEAR this time and yes, it all fell into place and now it FEELS right.

The enemy tries to sway me but that only shows me that I AM doing right! Doing right by God is all I live for now. :)

And it feels RIGHT! :)