Luke 6: 21 Blessed are ye that hunger now: for ye shall be
filled. Blessed are ye that weep now: for ye shall laugh.
As you know, or have an idea, that this is the Lent season,
I deem it my spiritual renewal and I tend to get deep into thought. I hope you
can all bear with me and my hope is that you, through reading my journey of
renewal, will take a peek in the mirror and instead of condemning yourself, try
and look into your mind, your heart, your soul. What you see is the true
essence of you.
If you look into your eyes and see yourself as fat and ugly,
no good, unworthy, unaccomplished or unappealing then you are full of doubts
and fears not truth. You may even put on a false face as you embrace the world
but know this, I SEE the real you. Even in your doctored persona I can see
right through the veil and see all the negative energy seep through.
Don’t ask me how I see, all I know is that everyone emits an
energy; a deeply rooted energy. Like the sun rising and moving across the sky,
you might never actually SEE the sun move, but you KNOW it moved from one
second to the next because it shows in the warmth of the rising to the setting.
Humans emit much of the same energy. And if you are full of a negative energy
it shows. You can’t mask energy no matter what you do.
Have you ever awakened in the morning and your stomach
started churning inside, grumbling like a madhouse in there? You realize you’re
hungry, so you eat; rumbling and churning gone, you then feel satisfied that
you’ve eaten. You go about your day when around noon time, there it is again,
the rumbling begging for more food.
Your body needs sustenance to keep you going. It feeds the
energy inside you. You see where I’m going with this, don’t you? God is a lot
like that, He wakes you in the morning, calls to you and you eat food instead
of asking Him what He wants. You need to be filled but your not getting the
fullness through food and can’t put your finger on those images you saw in the
mirror. The ones you saw yourself in the morning? You know, the ones where you
looked and saw fat, ugly, unworthy?
You might only know me through WORDS but do you see me as
fat, ugly, unworthy? I hope not. I hope you see me as a jovial spirit, filled
with love, happy-go-lucky kinda gal.
You probably wish you could smack the happy right off my
face, don’t you? Well you can’t, why? Because it is the energy I emit and
energy cannot be contained.
You might also assume that I have never experienced
lethargy, depression, anxiety, sickness, anger or hunger? Well you have assumed
wrong. I have suffered through the pains, been dragged about on limp legs, have
cried in pain until I felt all the life in me leap out and go off into the
unknown.
But wait, you don’t see that, do you? Well quite honestly it
was through the saving Grace of God that I came through EVERY hardship,
illness, every bout of depression and all self-doubt. How? I looked in the
mirror one day, I looked in my eyes and didn’t see doubt and fear surface; I
saw God looking back at me. Would that scare you straight? Seeing God looking
right at you, THROUGH you?
I saw Him looking at me as HE sees me and not as I had seen
myself. He saw His creation, perfect in His eyes for He makes no mistakes. If I
saw ugly, He saw beauty. If I saw doubt, He saw faith. If I saw darkness, He
saw Light! His Light and Son shining through me. The closer I looked the more
and more I saw the same thing He saw! Great, now the tricky part is to carry
that satiated energy throughout the day.
Depression looked bearable. Anxiety looked tolerable,
illness looked manageable. The mirror looked less foggy when I saw through His
eyes. HE was now the image I saw in the mirror every single day as I woke up.
HE was the image I rested on through the night. HE was the strength in the
mirror I would carry with me day after day, second by second. HE became the
very heartbeat of my soul.
That hunger I felt was not for food after all, it was a
Spiritual Hunger that my soul yearned for, craved for, would DIE for. A hunger
that only God himself could fill. I am now a spirit-filled image that you see
or read and only through the spirit that God gives each and every one of us
will we begin to see the Light, the Truth, our Comforter and Holy Spirit in the
mirror that we look in every day.
Next time you look in the mirror ask yourself a question,
“What am I going to feed myself with today?” I can guarantee you’re spiritually
starved and once you start feeding your soul, YOU too will see God in the
mirror!
1 Cor. 16: 18 For they have refreshed my spirit and
yours: therefore acknowledge ye them that are such
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