Wednesday, August 18, 2010

Day 3: A Lesson Learned

Acts 10:40 Him God raised up the third day, and shewed him openly;
Well today is day three of Adam going off to school. Guess what? I didn’t cry, he didn’t cry and we parted in a joyful, “I love you” as I watched him cross the lawn to go off into the world of knowledge.

I felt selfish the last two days crying and moping like a big baby, but then I thought, Crying because you love and miss your son is not being selfish, it’s pain being released. Selfish is not allowing him to grow.

It hit me the other evening when our neighbor, who is in the same school and rides the bus with Adam, had said, “I hate school. I’ve learned all I needed to and I don’t need it anymore.” I told him, “You never stop learning. Even me, I’m still learning.” God slap moment!

I realized that Adam needs to grow in knowledge that I can no longer give him. He needs to see and feel the world for all it is. I’ve taught him all that I can and now it is time for him to use what I taught him and go and learn from others. Last night as Steven, Adam and I all sat around doing Algebra (ugh) I realized so much of what Adam really needed.

Already surrounded by love, he will now flourish as a human being, and yes folks, I needed to FEEL this for myself. It’s like being told about God, but what a person really needs is to FEEL God in order to know the truth. No one person can tell you about God, you need to be shown.

This is still a writing blog about writing and I feel the need to share with all of my friends and followers the real me. I need to show you that there is a real human on the other side of this screen who is alive and willing to grow with all of you. I could have just started a new blog and made it all about Adams journey but I like to share the aspect of myself, that as a reader, you never connect with if I remain all about the technical field of writing.

You signed up as a follower, you signed on to me and all of me, not just what is nice and beautiful about me, but all the pains and heartache I, as a writer, go through. We’re on this journey together and always remember this, “You never stop growing!”

I know sometimes the day to day mundane crappola that we all go through might seem like we’re just robots functioning, but we’re humans. We think, feel, grow and live and we NEVER stop growing!

Thank you again for all your support! This is one writer who appreciates each and every one of you! ~~ Angel always...godspeed my friends!


Ro said...

I actually followed because of the human element. The writing info is just a bonus. I like the life experiences written by a writer. Beautiful, eloquent and descriptive. That's why I followed. So at least you have one reader out here who likes the personal posts. :)

joni said...

Thanks Ro,
We're human and it feels good know that. :)

I'm off getting on with my busy day, and hopefully I'll see the joy in all this for all that it is. :)

You have a GREAT day!

M. SUE said...

Hi Joni~
If you look back to School Day 1 for Adam and you, you will see that I said, "I want your report, both of how he did...and how you did...when you are able to post it!"...and I meant it. So, thank you for sharing so openly because I care about more than your writing. However, that said, may I compare your writing to the story,"The Velveteen Rabbit" in that it's real? I get it. I gain from it and I appreciate it, so be who you are: all of the above. You know who you are.